God's Promises! :)

I woke up this morning in the mood to write and didn't think I would have time to but because Brenden wants to sleep in some more I got some time so I'm taking advantage of it!

Have you ever really wondered about God's plan? How it seems so messed up and insane! I was just reading Psalm 105 and it illistrates an outline of how God used Jacob and then Joseph and then Moses and how it came full circle to reveal God's plan. He used these men in powerful situations and for one purpose... To show His greatness and what He can do when we truly believe. He uses Joseph to help save many lives. He uses Moses to rescue the people fro Egypt. Now put yourself in their shoes for a moment...

WOW Scary emotions were probably running through them the whole time. They had the world telling them that they were worthless and couldn't do it. But God, well we all know He had a different plan. He uses these weak men to show His wonderful story of love and trust. If we trust in God He will prevail. He says to trust in His promises and he will show you His desires. His desires might not be what we think they are. He might surprise you with great joy or He might spring up sad moments to open our hearts and bring us back to him. He is full of surprises and I can't wait to see what the next surprise is because His surprises are way better than I could have ever imagined.

I love watching God work in crazy, sad, wonderful ways! I've often wondered why God doesn't use me more, or why I still wrestle with thoughts of worthlessness, because I know I am not worthless and that is Satan attacking me in my weak moments. He knows just where to get me too! But can I tell you a secret, sometimes I cave into those thoughts and it just pushes me down. I have been so busy lately which is my fault that I have let things slide, like spending time with God, reading his word, praising his name. Because I let these things slide Satan has used this against me telling me that I'm not the Christian I should be. Well Satan your right. I'm not the Christian I should be and guess what??? The Lord still loves me and cherishes me and we are growing in our relationship every day. He is always with me telling my heart to not listen to you, but to listen to my heart that tells me I a loved, and yea I should spend more time with the Lord, trust God lets me know this to, but in a way that is with love and grace. When I'm in the car listening to the radio, I still hear, turn the radio off and talk to me. Sometimes I listen and sometimes I turn the radio up louder. For that Lord, I am sorry. I know I need to be still and really listen. Help me to be still and rest in your love. God you show me every waking moment your wonderful grace!! I love you, Lord with all my heart and with all the strength that is in me!