Well...

This month was a whirlwind, and one I hope to never forget. In this past month I've learned a lot about who I am and how God really does listen and answer prayers. I will always be thankful for this month, God brought this wonderful man into my life and even though I don't know if I will see or hear from him again, I will always be thankful for the moments. God has blessed me in so many ways. I have been wondering lately why God places people into our lives. Some are only for a moment, some stay for awhile and then some stay forever. I guess we can't take for granted those moments because it is in those moments where God says, How are you going to shine for me? I know that I fail in these moments a lot, but I pray everyday that God will use me in the best way He can! I struggle with a lot of doubt and fear when new people come into my life. I guess its because throughout my years, many have come into my life and left and broke my heart and so I put this guard up. I don't want to get hurt so I shut down and many say its like pulling teeth to get me to talk about my feelings, and I would have to agree. It was a great feeling to actually open up to someone and share my feelings. I think I've always thought my feeling are petty compared to what is in the real world, but I've learned yea, they might be petty but they are my feelings and I should share them. There are people out there who do really care and love me for who I am.

Lord, thank you so much for everything! I thank you for giving me the stepping blocks into this thing called dating and eyes to see you working in my life. You are all around me! You used your beauty to show me that you have me in your arms and that things will be ok. I thank you for the butterfly that flew around telling me it's ok to take a risk. I love you, Lord with everything that is in me and I pray for the people in my life who need you now more than ever! You are always there sharing with us your strength and courage. Thanks!